Wednesday, 17 April 2019

Pregnancy Diary - Part 2


So I’m well and truly into my second trimester and I have enjoyed it so much more than the first. Apart from tiredness and an achy back I’ve felt well and been able to really appreciate this stage in my pregnancy journey.

When we had our 12 week scan I was actually 14 weeks and whilst it was amazing to see our baby again it wasn’t the best of appointments. The computer systems were down so my full report couldn’t be done that day, the baby was just out of the date range for the nuchal transluancy test we’d opted to have so I had to be referred for bloods and the sonographer knocked a glass of water over my maternity notes so we had to wait around whilst she rewrote them! All of that aside, we were just so relived to see the baby moving around, developing as it should and with a strong heartbeat. 

After the 12 week scan we were able to tell a few more people which was lovely – especially my friends! Two of my best friends are also pregnant and it was so hard not to say anything straight away as all I wanted to do was talk to them, but we just wanted to get  to that milestone and make sure everything was as it should be before we told anyone else. 
At 15 weeks we went on a family holiday to Cornwall which was exactly what I needed, a week of fresh air, rest and lots of nice food. Whilst we were there I started feeling the first sign of movements (or the medical term, ‘quickening’) it felt a little bit like popping or fluttering – so exciting!

When I was much younger, the thought of a baby moving round in my stomach really grossed me out – now that it is actually happening to me, the only way I can describe it (I am aware that this is the cheesiest thing) is actual magic. It’s the best feeling in the world.

I’d been feeling the kicks and movement for a few weeks but David wasn’t yet able to feel them, then one Sunday I felt the baby doing some strong kicks and asked David to pass me his hand and he finally felt it! It was such a nice moment and so much more emotional than I thought.

It felt like quite a long wait between our 12 week and 20 week scan, I was anticipating this one the most as it’s a much longer scan to see baby’s full developments and any abnormalities. Our appointment was in the evening so it was hard to get through the day in work without thinking about it none stop. Whilst in the hospital waiting room I was so nervous waiting to be called in, luckily the sonographer couldn’t have been nicer and the whole experience was lovely. I had read that the sonographer can be quite quiet during this scan as they have to concentrate on every part of the baby but she talked us through everything she was looking at and what it all meant which made me feel at ease. Baby was tracking fine and I felt like a massive weight was lifted. Now it feels very weird that potentially that is the last time we’ll see the baby before they’re here!

In terms of products or things I’ve found helpful over this trimester, my pregnancy pillow is the best thing I’ve ever bought (so comfy – pregnant or not!) It’s quite big in the bed but it’s helped me make sure I sleep on my side (recommended for best blood flow in pregnancy) whereas normally I am an avid tummy sleeper.

I’ve got a few pairs of Topshop under the bump maternity jeans which have been a God send as well as some H&M none wired bras. I have struggled a little bit with my maternity style as I’ve outgrown a lot of my normal clothes now (I miss my high waisted jeans!) but ASOS also have a great range.

I’ve also been following influencer/vlogger Lily Pebbles on her pregnancy journey and she’s created a super helpful checklist if like me you have no idea where to start, or have a pregnant friend that you're looking to buy a useful gift for. You can find her blog post here. Plus she has some really great pregnancy videos on her YouTube channel which I’ve really enjoyed watching! 

If there’s any topics you’d like me to cover or any questions you have please comment on this post and let me know!

Alex x

Saturday, 30 March 2019

Pregnacy Diary - Part 1

The news is out – I’m pregnant!

So just to go waaay back to the start of this, I came off my pill September 2017 because it just wasn’t working for me, my skin was the worst it’s ever been, my mood swings were getting out of control and I’d started to get really down about it. So, I made the decision to let my body get back to the usual cycles (which did take a good few months and even then my periods were never like clockwork)

David and I obviously then had a conversation around me no longer being on contraception and at this point we just said we’d go with it and see what happened – we had our own house, good jobs, so if I were to fall pregnant, we were in a stable situation and knew we both wanted a family in the future.

Fast forward 11 months and nothing had happened. I would like to say at this point I wasn’t really tracking ovulation (I was using the app Natural Cycles to track my periods) it was difficult with my cycles not being regular etc but we did start to think that maybe something might be wrong.

August 2018 we got engaged and were beginning to start the process of planning the wedding for 2020 as that would be our 10 year anniversary year (and would hopefully give us a little more time to save!) In November, we parked the wedding planning and decided to enjoy Christmas and start up venue hunting again in the New Year.

Late November/early December I was expecting my period, I was already a few days late but didn’t think anything of it as this was quite normal for me. Got to 15th Dec and I woke up that Saturday morning and just thought, “I’ll do a test today just to double check.” Much to my surprise, the test came back positive! Two little lines. It was such a surreal moment walking back into the bedroom holding the test with a look of shock on my face that David didn’t even have to ask what the result was. David went straight out and bought a digital one just so we could be 100% and again, that came back positive – the word pregnant flashed up on the little window then a few seconds later 2-3 weeks. After the initial shock wore off, we were absolutely over the moon!

I’d had no symptoms (apart from my boobs being a bit sore but I thought that was just because my period was due!) no sickness, no food aversions, nothing! With it being Christmas time and seeing our families a lot we decided to tell them as they would wonder why I wasn’t drinking but it felt like such a special time to share our news.

After the excitement of telling our families had faded I found the very early weeks of my pregnancy a worrying and quite lonely time. Obviously I had David and our family who were great but it’s just a very surreal and strange few weeks when your medical appointments seems so far away and all you want is the reassurance that everything is okay in there. We opted to have an early private scan just before 10 weeks as I was getting more anxious every day and it was the best money we’ve ever spent. Hearing the sonographer say “yes, there’s the heartbeat” are words I will never forget.

Overall, the first trimester was a strange time for me, luckily I’d had no morning sickness at all only a little bit of nausea but what I didn’t realise was how all-consuming it was going to be, despite the lack of symptoms. My brain was on overdrive 24/7, I was stupidly googling every little thing to see if it was bad news, lying awake at night thinking of everything that could go wrong. If I could go back to those early weeks, I’d tell myself to relax and enjoy it as I look back on that time now as a blur of worry instead of excitement.

I’m now writing this at 20 weeks, after seeing our August baby at the scan this week (very tempted to find out the gender but we resisted!) I will be updating my journey on here as I enjoyed going into my second trimester and everything that has come with it - there's been quite a lot of change! 

Alex x